forever.
3 years today, Josh nearly drowned in the backyard pool, and was left severely brain damaged. 3 years ago. And 18 months since he grew his angel wings. Man, where did that time go?
We wont be 'doing' anything to remember today. I mean, ugh, who wants to really remember it? On the other hand, its a date I never forget, but not a day goes past when I dont think of my Jojo in some way. x
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Monday, January 9, 2012
A new year
I know for some, 2011 is a year some would rather forget. Some people I know have been through some absolute rubbish, and even still trying to dig their way out.
But as always, I believe its how you deal with what you're given that really matters, and shows your true character.
But as always, I believe its how you deal with what you're given that really matters, and shows your true character.
Here's hoping 2012 is fantastic for you, and a year of moving forward.
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Thursday, November 24, 2011
This Much
Water safety isn't just about backyard pools. Potential hazards are all around; buckets, dog bowls, esky's, puddles,and of course showers and bath tubs!
It only take 'this much' water for a child to drown. Watch the water!
It only take 'this much' water for a child to drown. Watch the water!
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Community Services
Hello! Hello!
It's been a while, but life has been busy. Mostly good; only one or two of the usual 'things' not even worth a mention, trying to bring things down. But that's life.
It's how and what you do with what life hands you that matters.
A few months ago I started full time study in the Community Services Industry. I can honestly say its one of the best decisions I have ever made, and I enjoy it immensely. I have submitted a few assessments now, and the feedback has been positive, so yay! (Even had to do a speech, and shook less than previous occasions! haha!). I'm on the right track! This particular course is a wonderful general course introducing this field and opportunities (and gaps) within it. I have an idea of where I want to go with it all, but one thing I have definitely learned is that you can plan things all you like, but sometimes things happen that you have no control over and you need to change direction...So it is with study; I have a goal in mind but I could end up in a different place. And I can't wait to see where that will be!
I've also worked a little and enjoyed some industry visits, and those experiences have been invaluable. I look forward to more eye-openers!
My gorgeous kids are developing on many levels, and I am really proud of each of them and love them to pieces. There are still times we need to re-adjust as a family, depending on what is happening at the time, but again, that's just life, so we move forward together.
It's been a while, but life has been busy. Mostly good; only one or two of the usual 'things' not even worth a mention, trying to bring things down. But that's life.
It's how and what you do with what life hands you that matters.
A few months ago I started full time study in the Community Services Industry. I can honestly say its one of the best decisions I have ever made, and I enjoy it immensely. I have submitted a few assessments now, and the feedback has been positive, so yay! (Even had to do a speech, and shook less than previous occasions! haha!). I'm on the right track! This particular course is a wonderful general course introducing this field and opportunities (and gaps) within it. I have an idea of where I want to go with it all, but one thing I have definitely learned is that you can plan things all you like, but sometimes things happen that you have no control over and you need to change direction...So it is with study; I have a goal in mind but I could end up in a different place. And I can't wait to see where that will be!
I've also worked a little and enjoyed some industry visits, and those experiences have been invaluable. I look forward to more eye-openers!
My gorgeous kids are developing on many levels, and I am really proud of each of them and love them to pieces. There are still times we need to re-adjust as a family, depending on what is happening at the time, but again, that's just life, so we move forward together.
Saturday, July 2, 2011
365 days
There’s that ache again. Recognise it now.
The pain in my chest wanting, needing,
To burst out through the hole that is there.
Permanently gaping.
The noises that rise from the depths of my being
Out in to the air
Shouldn’t surprise me, but they do.
Still feeling raw.
Oh, the things I would change if I could.
To have your gorgeous whole healthy self here.
That cheeky laugh, those quirky ways.
Ah, hindsight.
I miss you endlessly. More than all the blades of grass
And all the ants in the world.
Weren't you just in my arms? Didn’t I kiss your chubby cheeks?
Just dreaming.
Still so surreal. Time drags. Time flies.
Each step I take is one forward but
Only ‘cause I know that’s what Ive got to do.
Miss you. Love-a you. Always.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Friday, April 8, 2011
Unexpected Reminders
And so many little things have happened over the last few months. Many unexpected triggers that cause a rush of emotion - be it happiness, nostalgia, sadness. All endless.
Today, I was at my children school, watching the Easter Hat parade, that my 7 year old was to be in. The Kindergarten kids came out first, and the first thing I thought of, again unexpectedly, was that Josh would've been in Kindy...
He shouldv'e been there today, parading around in his decorated ice-cream container.
I wondered what class he would've been in.
He would've loved school.
All endless. Fleeting anger, but more resigned.
No tissues handy, but I had a scarf to surreptitiously wipe away the tears...
As Year 2 came out though, I watched my other son with pride, and thankful I was able to be there for him.
Today, I was at my children school, watching the Easter Hat parade, that my 7 year old was to be in. The Kindergarten kids came out first, and the first thing I thought of, again unexpectedly, was that Josh would've been in Kindy...
He shouldv'e been there today, parading around in his decorated ice-cream container.
I wondered what class he would've been in.
He would've loved school.
All endless. Fleeting anger, but more resigned.
No tissues handy, but I had a scarf to surreptitiously wipe away the tears...
As Year 2 came out though, I watched my other son with pride, and thankful I was able to be there for him.
To write or not to write?
That is the question.
I haven't written for a while for a number of reasons. Its not that I haven't wanted to; more to do with being pulled in different directions in knowing whether I could and should... I can only say that certain people haven't wanted me to write about Josh, and our life, and while I can understand that to a point, I feel I write - even more so now - from my perspective, while respecting others by not slandering or casting them in a bad light, etc. Even from a legal viewpoint, as long as I maintain this, and consider my children's best interests, I try to highlight the good and bad, the stuff that comes from an event happen such as ours. Its about raising awareness, not laying blame.
I haven't written for a while for a number of reasons. Its not that I haven't wanted to; more to do with being pulled in different directions in knowing whether I could and should... I can only say that certain people haven't wanted me to write about Josh, and our life, and while I can understand that to a point, I feel I write - even more so now - from my perspective, while respecting others by not slandering or casting them in a bad light, etc. Even from a legal viewpoint, as long as I maintain this, and consider my children's best interests, I try to highlight the good and bad, the stuff that comes from an event happen such as ours. Its about raising awareness, not laying blame.
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