Friday, April 8, 2011

Unexpected Reminders

And so many little things have happened over the last few months.  Many unexpected triggers that cause a rush of emotion - be it happiness, nostalgia, sadness.  All endless.

Today, I was at my children school, watching the Easter Hat parade, that my 7 year old was to be in.  The Kindergarten kids came out first, and the first thing I thought of, again unexpectedly, was that Josh would've been in Kindy... 

He shouldv'e been there today, parading around in his decorated ice-cream container.

I wondered what class he would've been in.

He would've loved school.

All endless.  Fleeting anger, but more resigned.

No tissues handy, but I had a scarf to surreptitiously wipe away the tears...

As Year 2 came out though, I watched my other son with pride, and thankful I was able to be there for him.


Tianne said...

I could have written this exact post Wendy, Kalen should have started school this year too. Take care xx

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Jodi said...

It has been 21 years this coming august since my daughter had her near drowning and I wish I could say those triggers go away. There become fewer and far between but when hr 16th, 18th, and 21st birthday, what should of been her graduation year, watching other kids her age going to college they were all tough.

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